If someone would have told me...

If someone would have told me that I was going to be going to school in Wisconsin, I would have said "no way that will never happen." If someone would have told me that I would be a part of the Concordia family, I would have said "No, I'll be at Roosevelt." If someone would have told me that I would actually like living in Wisconsin, I would have said "Hells' no, it's SO boring there." If someone were to ask me if I would actually miss Wisconsin, I would say "Yes, but Chicago is and will forever be my home, no matter where I live." I came here almost 9 months ago, and at first I loved the idea of just being able to get away from things for a little while, then one night it really hit me that I was not at home anymore, that for the first time ever I was alone and then I was sad and scared. For a while I kept questioning whether or not I had made the right choice, in the back of my mind I already knew that it was, but I would still sit in my room and ask myself "how the hell did I not only get into grad school, but managed to come here as well?" There were even a few times when I went to chapel to not only cry and ask "What am I doing here?!" I would also pray for strengh to at least make it through the year before I made my final choice. If someone would have asked me would I come back next fall, I would have said "I don't know." The first few nights I was here I had nightmares like there was no tomorrow, I would also wake up in the middle of night and forget where I was. I also had to get used to my bed, because it was a twin, when I was used to a queen size bed so a few nights of falling off were just awesome!;-/ Then my classes started, and truth be spoken I almost fell out of my chair that day, luckily not many people saw it. Then came the issues of making friends, work, money, homework, meeting expectations, dealing with death, learning to get by on little money, learning to keep myself busy and so on and so on. Out of all these things the ones I had the most difficulty with were making friends, and learning to keep busy. Then somehow it got a little easier slowly but surely, I still struggle with these two things...but now I can honestly say if someone were to tell me Roosevelt accepted me, I would say "well that's awesome but I'm already in school and I love it and I don't care if other people say Wisconsin is boring." I can not tell a lie, as much as I really really like Wisconsin and probably can grow to love it, it's not home. Chicago is my home and I CANNOT wait to be home for the summer but then again I'll admit this my secret to you, I will start to miss Wisconsin. Who knows I might actually sit in my room in Chicago and say "what the hell am I doing home?!" I doubt I'll fall off the bed, but I do expect to wake up every now and then and have to remind myself that I'm home. So here's my question to you...If someone would have told you...whatever what would you have said?