A blessing in disguise?

I am 25 years old and I have been working since I was 16, I'm in grad school and not only am I in school I am actually living on campus as well. I guess you could say I'm getting the actual college experience that I didn't get a chance to have as an undergrad. Now I quit my crappy little job, because I thought I had a job lined up here on campus in the end it was a bust. So now I have applying to every possible position available here at school, and just now as I sitting here and reading my email I remembered how a year ago I said "I wish I didn't have to work, I wish I could just go to grad school and just focus on school." Now the only reason I was working was to keep up with my bills, but here's the best part I'm getting a bit of money back from school and I did the math in my head and calculated everything from tuition loans that I am currently paying back to credit card payments as well, and if I did my math right and I like to think I did I might be able to make it for the next four months without working, now granted if I do get a job that would be great, but considering I really don't spend a whole lot of money here and we've just started tax season, which means a little extra cash as well and when I go home for spring break I'll be working at my crappy little job; plus I also have my parents and worse case scenario I ask them for cash every now and then but I don't think I'll necessarily need to do that, but that would mean I could actually make it this semester; I could just focus on school. As hard as this is to believe but I think not having a job might be a blessing in disguise. Of course I know I'll have to tighten my belt and watch my pennies which I know how to do very well, but maybe I should consider taking time off from working and just focus on school and take better care of myself and sort of be able to relax. So here's my question to y'all should I take consider my not working a blessing in disguise?

Are people suppose to be friends or yes people?

What is a friend? Why do we have them? I've always thought friends are people who are suppose to be honest and be there for you when you need them, but sometimes I wonder if that's true. Lately it seems as though one of my friends doesn't want a friend she just wants someone who will sit there and lie because she doesn't want to hear the truth. Now granted nobody likes to hear the truth, hell I don't like to hear the truth but I would rather hear the truth and try to change then sit there and pretend everything is ok when it's clearly not. My friend who's name will be changed to Stacy does not get the hint that she isn't well. She is emotionally unstable and keeps letting herself get hurt by her "ex" or truthfully I don't know what he is. This boy and I use the word boy because he is not a man. This boy keeps treating her like crap and they keep "breaking up" but then she is, I'm sorry to say, dumb enough to take him back. Now I'm not saying it's entirely his fault she is just if not more to blame than he is. Now typically when a girl breaks up with a guy or the other way around the dumper will try to avoid the dumped. In this case Stacy keeps trying to have a relationship with this man and here is why he doesn't want her he has an arranged marriage. And Stacy can not get through her head that their relationship will never work because they not only religion differences they also have culture differences, she's white and Christian, he's Hindu and here's my favorite part she is closed minded and believes that things should be her way, and is not very open to changes. She is emotionally wrecked and she also has trust issues, she doesn't trust anyone but herself, when she told me this I told her straight out that she cannot be a counselor if she doesn't have an open-mind. Now I decided to give Stacy a little test last Friday when we hung out, I told her that in order for her to get the ball back in his court, especially because again they were "broken up" I told her to not talk to him for the entire weekend, well of course I knew she wasn't going to follow through and then she tries to justify why she was texting him and then ruined our night. We ended up leaving around 9:00 because she started to get sad, now out of respect for her boss, I just said fine we'll leave because I didn't want to confront her in front of her boss. I kept quiet in the car and just like I knew she would because she always does she brought him up and I told her the same thing that I have been telling her for about 2 months that this guy is not going to take her seriously, he is not going to commit to her, blah, blah,blah,blah and here's my other favorite part I am not the only person who has been telling her this. Oh no her boss and a few of her other friends have been telling her this as well, and because of this she is not speaking to some of her friends. And tonight it seemed as though she was trying to end our friendship because and I quote "I am not emotionally stable enough to be able to stand here and have you call me narcissistic and I like that your blunt but at times I just don't want to hear it." So I told her something that I have been wanting to tell her for weeks, I told her "I don't bring up your "ex" you always bring him and you bring him up because you not only want to rant but you're asking for advice but unfortunately I'm not telling you what you want to hear. You want me to tell you "fine go ahead be with him" well unfortunately I'm not going to sit here and lie to you like you want me to, especially because I can see that he is hurting you, and that you are not well." What is the point in having friends if they're not going to be honest with you? Why have them then? Why not just say I don't want a friend I want a lackey? So my question is are friends suppose to be honest with you or are they just suppose to tell you what you want to hear instead of the truth?

When it goes around does it really come around?

Today I had lunch with my best friend whose name will be changed to...Darien. He and I met in high school and at first we both had the idea that we hated each other when in reality we didn't. We became friends during community college but it was mostly because we were in the same clubs; so in reality we knew each other because of high school and because we were in the same clubs. Then I transferred to a four year university, we kept in touch with the occasional phone call and or email then we lost contact for a while and then about two years I sent him an email and actually got a response from him, one that changed our friendship for the better. We went from supposedly "hating each other" to being acquainted to one another to becoming best friends. Funny how that happens but I will admit that I've had or rather still have a crush on him but I've gotten better at hiding it. Now I know what you're thinking... "why don't you just tell him?" Well I did about a year ago I finally told him I had feelings for him and his response was... well he's my best friend for a reason and basically it's because he didn't have the same feelings for me. Which is fine, I don't let my feelings for him stop me from seeing other people, I've gotten to gotten to know Darien very well and I have to admit it's nice to have a friend like him in my life. He's one of those friends that you know will be there when you need a shoulder to cry on or just to let you rant when needed, and I speak from experience on both of these accounts. He has let me cry on his shoulder on more than one occasion and the one thing I love about him is that he lets me cry and does not push me to stop. He is an amazing man and I love him very much for that. Now the reason why I am posting this question today, he told me a very interesting story, after I finally told him a secret I had been keeping he told me one he was keeping as well and no he does not have secret feelings for me on the contrary a girl he used to like years ago while we were at Community College, who in the end didn't not return the feelings at the time. Well apparently he didn't take the rejection very well for a while which I didn't know, but then he got over it and got over her. Well this year that same girl told him just recently that she has feelings for him. And like her years ago he does not see her that way. Now I know this girl and I know for a fact that she will get over it and will eventually move on; but here's what I found interesting years ago he told her he liked her and took her on a great date and after many years she would compare all of her dates to their date and in the end she developed feelings for him just to get rejected. So this is why I ask the old saying what goes around comes around, does that really happen? He liked her but she didn't like him and then many years later she realized he was a great catch and was an idiot for not taking the bait while she had the chance, she tries to reel him now but in the end gets rejected just like he did years ago. What do you think? When it comes to dating does it really come around or are just idiots for not seeing things sooner?

Why not me?

I just had a revelation...or more like a breakdown about the fact that my ex-boyfriend and I broke up for good. We broke up over a month ago after 2 years of flirting, and making out we finally became a couple this past July just for it to turn into a long distance relationship because I ended up moving to Wisconsin, and he moved back to North Carolina. We broke up or rather I dumped him because it finally hit me that even though we were "together" if you could even call it that, we weren't and we were never going to be. He was never going to introduce me to his family, in fact I don't think he would have even acknowledge that I was his girlfriend if anybody asked him. I was just going to be some mistress he had in Chicago because according to him his family is very racist and would never accept me and he wasn't willing to fight for me. If I hadn't mentioned wanting to see him, during Christmas break I would have been left as the dumb Hispanic girl in Chicago, while he married someone his family did approve of aka a white girl. What the hell was I thinking? I wanted to be with him more than I have wanted to be with anyone and in the end I got my heart broken by this so called man, and now I have to sit here and wonder "why not me?" I hear this everyday "you're so smart, you're so sweet, you're so cool, you're a great person, you're a beautiful person, you've got a great future ahead of you blah,blah,blah,blah...BLAH FREAKING BLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! If I am all of these things and more than why wasn't it enough for him? What more did he want? What is wrong with me? So my question for you is what is wrong with all the women that can't find a decent man? What makes it so hard for a good woman to find a good man?